Friday, February 19, 2010
@ 4:51 AM
Im tired of everything, I noe I did a lot of things..
But Im glad you told me the truth..
I was always there for you.. I tried understanding you..
I never wanted you to be left out..
I save you from the left out place.. I hope you are happy..
When I say I don't like him anymore.. I mean it..
The reason why I kept saying his name, is because I wanted you
to have the chance to tell everything about the one you love or like..
But it was all for nothing.. There's no use for me to be your BESTFRIEND..
It's over.. I'll just be nobody to you and pretend you didn't know me..
From today onwards.. before I do anything.. I won't think about your feelings anymore..
I'll stay away from all your close friends and never become close to them.
I trusted you.. I wanted you to be happy.. I get myself into trouble cause I came back late and
I didn't have a reason to come back because I was at the Bartley Secondary School bus stop with you..
Waiting for Ariffin to pass by there..
I visited you and called you when you were absent..
To check if you were ok..
Even though you didn't do that for me..
I went to your house void deck when you ask me, when we were suppose to be enemies..
We went there to hang out cause in school we don't have that chance to hang out..
But pretendings will always become reality..
You told me I've change.. Can you tell me why I changed?
No.. You don't know about my problems at home..
Why? Cause you never give me the chance to talk about my family..
Unlike you.. I don't share my problems..
Everything is hidden as soon as I leave my house door..
That last message was cruel.. you didn't know how much I cried, when you cry..
I've always wanted to be there as a good friend but I didn't know how to cause each time
when you were sad..
I couldn't be there for you..
If I could do anything to make you happy.. I would
Cause I grew up with you since P1..
You became my good friend eversince you seat with me at the table with
Zhi Yi,Nancy and Marianne...
I stood by you each time they talk bad bout you..
Even though I go with the flow with Ernisah,Sufiah and Qi Zhi..
For betraying you.. the guilt could never be erase till now..
I made you suffer that's why now
I always wanted you to fit in.. Everywhere I go..
I want you to be with me so that you don't have be alone..
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